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It's been a while.

After I wrote the last entry for class I focused more on writing in my personal journal and getting back into the country. Moving back into the US turned into moving back into Traverse City and then Ann Arbor. My time in TC was full of friends and family: some of the most wonderful ten days in a row ever. Ann Arbor for the first two weeks was entirely band. Going to class is like a vacation. Except for the fact that I feel like I haven't yet gotten a break. I'm still going and going from last school year.

But here's a final post that I wrote right when I got back from Spain.

I like the thought of not recognizing a laugh written on paper even though it is the same laugh in real life. I am relearning to laugh.

Two weekends ago I took another trip, this time to Andalusia: Granada and Seville. Eh, only a 7+ hour bus ride. But there were no bus mishaps (thank, goodness) and in Granada I had one of my favorite experiences of Spain (no, it wasn't getting wasted off of Sangria and absinthe and dancing salsa through the streets of Granada, although this would have been a very spanish experience). I went with a few friends to a local bar to watch native Flamenco dancing. We were in this little crowded room; chairs on three sides. On the little worn stage, flooded with big lights from the opposite side, were a guitar player, floutest, singer, three female dancers and one male dancer. The guitarist played like I wish I could and the singer sang from her neck and it was like a stream of emotion coming out raw. The dancers did a few songs together and then each dancer had a solo time and did as many songs as they seemed up for. The first songs would be correographed (at least the music) and then they seemed more and more improv by the end, with multiple endings that the dancer could choose from.

One of the women had the most beautiful hands. They were perfection and I could not look away from them. They were like a man’s hands but too knowledgeable and well executed to be. Her arms leading up to those hands were just as perfect, like a pair by Michelangelo. I always think about Jack Dawson from 'Titanic' and his appreciation for hands: hands are the sex appeal. He didn’t fall in love with a prostitute, he just drew her hands.

The older, most experienced dancer began her solo pieces with a shawl around her shoulders. As she danced between the spotlight and gave life to her shawl it looked like a black raven descending from the sun with each feather outstretched separately. She danced and danced with such passion. She lifted her skirt like we were her man but it was her feet that were precious; that we lusted to see. The sweat ran into her eyes and them streamed back out afresh.

The young dancer had fingers like birds. Her hands could flutter or stick stiff. They were small like she was, and lithe and beautiful like she was. She was clearly the youngest; not just in her natural beauty. She was the youngest because she didn’t dance for the love of dancing, which was beautiful and full of passion in its own, but she danced for the love in life. When she looked out off the dance floor she demanded a deep love from all of us, a love that bleeds out from behind the bones in your chest. We all fell in love with her. In her gaze you saw the deepest but most anguished love. She was young enough to still be consumed by the pain and anguish of life. I fell in love and cried.

Some of the best parts of the trip:

-Riding my rented bike in Amsterdam. Looking back, signaling with one hand, reading the map with the other, and seeing my cousins there; all of us on an adventure through new worlds.

-Swimming in a gold specked ocean in Barcelona and being in two places at once: surrounded by my friends and family at home in the lake and floating by nude Spaniards in the Mediterranean.

-Living as a rich family in their summer villa on the outskirts of Firenze, listening to opera and eating homemade ravioli and ice cream.

-Hearing from one of the UM girls that I had never gone out with before, that the first night she ever spent with me and my close friends, the final night of the trip filled with Tapas, dancing, and goodbyes, was her favorite night of the trip.

There is such a beauty in the streets here and in Portugal. And it is not just the old couples supporting each other as they walk together through the years. It is not just the young children who speak in spanish and laugh in spanish and teach me how to love on first sight. It is the streets themselves that hold something within them. Here all of the sidewalks are made brick by brick, different colors. In portugal, ever step brought a continuation of some beautiful design that spread down the street. In Portugal, many of the walls of the buildings were made from bright, glazed, ceramic tile. The walls were canvases as well. In Segovia this past weekend, many of the buildings were also etched into, spirals of indentation crawling up their sides. And the buildings themselves. Wherever I walk here I find myself walking by someplace beautiful. I think it is the history that seeps from between their cracks, maybe that's it.

But this beauty is tarnished by the pollution that lingers in Spain. We may not have the history, in the United States, but I am thankful of our respect, usually, of our environment. On every walk you take in Spain there are always mystery wet spots on the sidewalks. Quite frequently you get dripped on from above and you'll think it's raining for ten seconds, and then you start hoping to God that that mini rain was clean. Here everyone smokes and when they are done with those cigarettes they throw them on the ground. When we went to Portugal and saw those beautiful brick sidewalks, a part of me wondered whether the bricks weren't really just a place for the cigarette butts so that people can pretend they are not there uglying their streets. Every sidewalk is littered with butts within the cracks, some with lipstick around the ends, some still smoking. There are so many that every night the streets are cleaned. They have huge street cleaners here that come with loud, spinning brooms on the bottom that gobble up the trash and the remnants of cancer smoked that day. Many times a week men also come and spray down a whole street with hoses of gushing water. Just make sure you don't try to walk by one of those guys when they're not paying attention or in a bad mood.

These past six weeks I’ve been learning a lot about the civil war and the Franco regime in Spain. The dictator Franco didn’t die until 1975. Until then Spain was a dictatorship and there were censorships on the arts as well as the economy. Reading literature that recorded these things made me really appreciate our freedom. In the US and in the modern democratic of Spain we have more than one brand of pop, we can choose which phone company we want to use, we can read political cartoons. Our authors don’t have to leave the country to write what they want. We have such freedom.

We also discussed the meaning and role of the literature we read. Sometimes it is difficult to look at the past and not just ignore it. In present day Spain it is a constant back and forth: should we go back and examine our ugly past or not? For some Spaniards, the past wasn’t ugly. For some, the present day economic slump is the fault of the democracy; during Franco’s rule they never had problems like this.

I believe that it is important to look back and remember the past. We should examine what was written and we should learn from it. We read a piece of literature about the time before the civil war, when the church and the right did not want teachers speaking out and teaching new, worldly ideas. The teachers were the strength behind the revolution into a Republic because when people were educated they too wanted to fight for freedom.

Literature from the past is our teacher. It has the power to urge us to fight for and protect our freedom. We can look back at the Francos and the Hitlers and recognize them when they surface again.

After skyping about a billion people in the last few months (as well as the most wonderful mirror in my apartment here), I've realized that 'a person's beauty depends more on the light than on their face'. There are more factors to your beauty than just your basic physical attributes.

I wish I had something amazing to say as a conclusion to this Blog. Maybe I can just say that I hope this is not an end; that I will be exploring new universes in the future. And I do believe that traveling abroad helps. I have become a different person after this summer, one with new experiences that will never be forgotten, even the not so great ones. Going abroad is not just learning about the world but about yourself. But I also think that this can be done at home as well and we cannot forget that. Do not think that staying in one place means that you are limited as a person or limited in your growth. Look at the world around you in a new light. Take some time to think about things you have never considered before. Breath a little slower, gaze a little higher, smell a little deeper. Talk a little more and then a little less. Try to remember a feeling or an image for more than just that fleeting moment. Meet someone new, go somewhere new, love something new. Do not be afraid. Do not be afraid to accept the amazing things that come and do not be afraid to give amazing things back. We live in an absolutely astounding universe of space and light and thoughts and emotions. Don't let it slid by. Laugh.

Love.

Inglés; Spanish

Escribí esto para mi presentación final para una clase en Salamanca:

Mis experiencias

Yo empecé a aprender español en mi primer año de colegio, grado nueve. Mi escuela no ofreció clases de idiomas antes de grado nueve. Muchas personas empecieron en grado diez. No tuve que aprender español. Tomé español porque yo sabía que muchas americanos hablaron español. Yo podía tomar clases de francés o alemán. Yo tenía una amiga que estudió alemán. Había cinco estudiantes en su clase, mas o menos, y usualmente no teníamos bastante estudiantes para tener más de una clase en un tiempo durante el día. Cuando yo visité Francia cuando tenía 16 años, decidí que no me gustó español y que frances era mejor. frances era muy bonita. Puede cantar nanas en francés. Es un buen cosa que me gusta reggaton también...

Mis experiencias con Español eran... buenas. Yo tenía tres profesores, un de México, los otras de Los Estados Unidos. Las clases eran faciles pero nunca quería estudiar. Recuerdo estudiando gramática y vocabulario. En el grado diez, aprendí todos los animales. Pienso que dibujé cuadros. En el grado doce, mi ultimo en colegio, no puedo poner una clase normal en mi horario porque siempre tomé banda (y banda usualmente era al mismo tiempo de todas las clases importantes que necesité tomar) y otras clases difíciles. Así tuve que tomar un clase a las siete en la mañana por un hora, tres veces una semana. Era un AP clase, un clase en un nivel de una Universidad, y en el fin del año, tomé el AP examen. Pienso que recibí un -4 (ok, sólo un 2. Pero cuando mi Universidad dará crédito para sólo un 4 o 5, un 2 era lo mismo que un -4).

Pero, en el fin, tomé un examen cuándo llegué a La Universidad

de Michigan y no necesité tomar mas clases de Español para graduar. Pero, en mi primer año de Universidad, aún tuve un pasión para español. Había recibido esa pasión, no de mis clases en colegio, pero de una experiencia dos veranos antes. Antes de mi ultimo año de colegio, viajé con un grupo se llama "Putney" a La República Dominicana. Viví en el piso de una escuela para un mes, hablé español roto a los niños dominicanos y rasguñé mi mordidos de los insectos hasta ellos sangraron. Era un mes de servicios sociales, y era el mejor mes de mi vida. Aún quiero regresar.

Había oído que clases de idiomas en Universidad eran muy buenas. Después de un semestre de 275 en Michigan, no estaba de acuerdo. El semestre proximo, no quería tomar otra clase de Español. Pero ese verano trabajé en una escuela de verano para niños migrantes. Yo pasaba diez horas cada día con niños de familias que condujo a Michigan en los veranos para trabajar en campos de la cereza. Todos los niños hablaron español pero un versión muy diferente del Español puro y apropiado aquí en España. Durante el año estos niños mueven de lugar a lugar, de escuela a escuela. Asi, aunque ellos aprenden ingles por los años, están en un nivel muy bajo de otros estudiantes la misma edad. Ese verano, practiqué mi español pero no mejoré.

Y ahora estoy aquí en Salamanca, España. Vine en el verano porque no quería estar lejos de la Universidad de Michigan por un semestre. Siempre, quiero aprender español y poder comunicar en español pero nunca he querido aprender en una clase. Me encanta Salamanca. Me encanta caminar dentrás de los viejos por horas durante el día. Me encanta el calor que brilla en los calles. Me encantan las iglesias de arena, con sus detalles como vides. Y me encanta el español que trato hablar y entender.

He pasado tres meses ahora afuera de Los Estados Unidos. He oído muchos idiomas y inglés también. Me fascinan idiomas, más y más porque de mis experiencias este verano, más y más porque mi propio batalla a aprender español, en mi pasado, presente, y en mi futuro.

Quería comparar todas las culturas sobre aprendiendo

otra lengua.

Como siempre, quería aprender sobre nuestro mundo por aprendiendo sobre otro.

Las Experiencias de Personas en España

Guardería

En España, he tenido muchas experiencias con el sistema educativo.

Visité una escuela para infantiles que se llama "El Globo Rojo". Durante el verano, es una "guardería" pero durante el año es un colegio. Niños tienen que empezar escuela cuando tienen 6 años; "El Globo Rojo" tiene clases para los niños que tienen desde 18 meses hasta 5 años. La guardaría tiene clases diferentes para cada edad de niño. Allí, los niños empiezan aprender ingles; cada día desde 9 hasta 11 en la mañana.

En España, muchos de los niños ya saben inglés muy muy basico cuando tienen tres años. Siempre es inglés, pero en algunos casos personas saben un poco de francés o alemán también.

Biblioteca

Aquí en Salamanca, también he visitado una biblioteca que llama "La Biblioteca Fundación Germán S. Ruiperéz". La es una biblioteca privada especialidad para niños (hasta la edad de 18 años). La tiene un sección de libros fáciles en ingles para infantiles.

Mi mama es un bibliotecaria en una primaria y hablé con ella sobres sus experiencias allí. Dijo que en su biblioteca presente, no hay libros en español. Hay no mucho interés en otro idiomas en toda de su escuela. Algunos años pasado ella trabajó en la bilbioteca de una escuela de menos cualidad. Había muchos niños y familias migrantes que hablaron español. En esa escuela, los niños usaron los libros españoles mucho. Estes libros son muy similar de los libros de La Biblioteca Fundación Germán S. Ruiperéz pero el opuesto. Pienso que es una cosa triste que en mi cuidad es sólo los niños que ya saben español que están leyendo libros en español .

Mis Hermanas

Vivo con dos hermanas aquí en Salamanca. Ambos son simpáticas y unas veces piensan que estoy una poco loca. He hablado un poco con ellas sobre sus escuelas y sus experiencias con ingles:

Leticia tiene 14 años. Ella es gordita como muchos los niños, pero bonita, especialidad cuando ella lleva solo su ropa interior con orgullo en nusetra casa. Cuando tomo comida ella me grita si no tomo bastante en su opinión. Leticia te gusta la piscina y sus amigas. Después del fin de Semana pasado, no vi Leticia por una noche o dos. Cuando la vi a ella finalmente, le pidí si ella pasó uno o dos noches con sus amigos. Ella respondío "cuatro". Tiene no problema con me dice que ella no puede entenderme y mi Español roto. Cada día me grita a mí porque digo "Muy calor" en lugar de "mucho calor". El primer vez que hablamos sobre su escuela, y tomo notas, ella me ayudó porque elle no pudo mirarme escribir incorrecto. Ella es una buena maestra para mi. Todos saben que necesito ayudar.

Leticia asistió una guardería pero recuerda que ella empezó a aprender ingles cuando ella tuvo 5 o 6 años, en su primero año de primaria. Ahora, ella asista un secundaria Cristiano. Algunas días de la semana, ella estudia inglés, por tres o cuatro horas cada semana. He oído cosas sobre sus deberes de inglés (pero no los he visto).

La maestra de inglés en la escuela de Leticia es de España. En su clase ellos usan una pagina en el Web para mucho trabajo: ego4u.com. Eso es raro para mi porque nunca recuerdo usando un sitio en la computadora para estudiar español. Leticia también conoce todo sitio para traducir español y inglés en todo el mundo.

No he oído mas de Leticia dice algunos frases demasiados basicos como "I love _____" con un acento muy grueso.

Lorena tiene 21 años y asista la Universidad de Salamanca. Como su Hermana, ella es morena, toda morena, con pelo rizado. Lorena te gusta música buena (en mi opinión porque me gusta reggaton también.) Me encantó su versión de "Right Now" por Akon en Español. Muchas veces, cuando estoy regresando a mi casa después de mi noche, Lorena está saliendo y entonces pasa toda la noche en fiestas como un Española real.

Lorena empezó a estudiar inglés en el tercero año de Primaria, cuando tuvo diez años. Cada semana estudió inglés en clases por dos o tres horas hasta graduó de colegio. Hacia tres años y ella está olvidando inglés pero ella también dice que ella nunca sabía inglés. Siempre sus maestras eran de España y no estaban buenos. En clase de inglés, ellos aprendieron muchas palabras y mucha gramática de inglés pero todos los lecciones eran en español. Nunca teníamos conversaciones en inglés...

En Universidad, personas nunca estudian soló inglés pero muchos estudiantes tienen un "erasmus", un viaje por un año, a países en Europa (pero no a Los Estados Unidos porque el sistema educativo es demasiado diferente).

Pedí a Lorena porque Leticia empezó a estudiar inglés mas temprano. Me dijo que hay leyes hoy día que dicen cuando niños tiene que empezar a estudiar inglés. Cada año los leyes dicen un año más y más temprano.

Conclusión

Es extraño para mi que la gente en España no sabe mucho inglés y especialidad que mis hermanas no hablan inglés muy bien. Este no es sólo porque estoy estropeada: Cuando viajé al norte de Europa a Copenhagen, Berlin, y Amsterdam antes de este programa, toda la gente habló inglés como nativos. Ellos fueron ofendidos si piensas que no saben.

En Copenhagen, aprenden inglés perfecto porque sólo tiene subtítulos en sus programas: no doblan sus películas. Pienso que ese en unos de los rasones que el inglés aquí es peor que en otras países es que todas las películas españolas son dobladas. En España hay leyes que dicen que todas las películas extrañjeros tiene que están doblado. Las personas que yo conocé en Copenhagen están de acuerdo que los subtítulos son muy importante. Ellos dicen que aprendieron inglés de programas como '91201'.

Pienso que en Los Estados Unidos ¡necesitamos empieza a aprender

inglés antes de colegio! Niños están mejor con un idioma nuevo

antes de la edad de 7. Aquí los niños aprender muchoinglés antes de

esta edad y ese es una cosa importante y efectiva. Pero también

necesitamos continuar a enseñar estos idiomas nuevos en una manera

cualidad. No funciona a enseña sólo vocabulario y gramática. Y no

puede tener maestras que no saber y hablar el idioma nuevo muy

bien. También necesitamos, en Los Estados, tener más oportunidades

y cosas para ayudar los niños estudian otro idiomas. Necesitamos

libros en español para todas las edades de niños, necesitamos

películas y programas en Español, con subtítulos sólo. España

también puede usar películas con subtítulos en lugar de están

doblado. Hay problemas con ambos sistemas. Pero podemos aprender

del uno al otro.

¡Vida España!

7:45- Wake up.

If my host mom works in the morning and has gotten up before me, then she’ll set out my breakfast. Most mornings I end up making my own: Simple but good coffee (did you know that I never drank coffee consistently before this? I also drink juice frequently, either orange juice or peach, grape juice. It is wonderful. Every morning I have two pieces of toast with either butter or jam or both. I miss the options and ingredients of Italy. I am usually hungry about ten minutes after I have eaten.

8:35- Leave for class. I live about 15 minutues from the center of Salamanca: Plaza Mayor.

This means about 25 minutes from class, I’ve made it in 15 (I’ve had to).

Salamanca is predominately filled with three things:

Cute dogs, Cute toddlers, and old people. There are more elderly people here than in Florida. I do not see how they are all still going so strong!

Everyone ten years or older here seems to smoke. They do not exercise, and all they eat is fatty meat from stores that smell like death by chemicals. But somehow they are still living and they seem to own ever bench, street corner, and sidewalk. Arm and arm together or with a younger family member, they walk at a snails pace through the streets. Sometimes there will be 3, 4, 7 old people talking and walking together. They don't care if I am behind them or how much of a hurry I am in. They walk the speed they want (/can) and take up the space they want. This goes for all Spanish people in Salamanca. If you want to have a fun get together will all of your friends, just walk into the middle of any populated sidewalk and start talking. At least the streets are not as narrow as in Florence...

(But even if I complain, the old people of Salamanca, as well as the culture of walking from place to place, are some of my favorite things here. Why don't we walk everyday with our grandparents, steeped in memory, through the streets of our hometowns?)

9:00- My first class is taught by a University of Michigan Professor. I think the class is called “Memorica Histórica” or something. Basically we learn about the Spanish Civil War by reading Spanish literature. It will count for 276, for any people knowledgeable about University of

Michigan Spanish classes. After two hours of this, I then go to my Spanish history class.

This one is only an hour and taught by a Universidad de Salamanca Profesor who is young but has a greying dirt mustache and beard. He tells us that Franco was short and fat and when he tells jokes about Franco (for which he has to teach us the vocab before hand so that we will understand the joke when it finally comes) he uses this high, little girls voice. I usually don't get the joke (even after all that) but I laugh just because of the voice.

At noon I have my art history class with a Spanish professor who has long curly red hair, the reddest I have ever seen. I think it's pretty. Since she is a HUGE supporter of our football team, she wore red for a few days straight: stretchy, all red outfits that look like they were meant for 6th grade girls, with fringe and all.

1:45- At home at last. I never know when my family is going to be home anymore. Some meals we eat all together (with the TV blaring) and some I eat alone. When I ask where everyone has been during the day, the answer's usually work, a friend's, or the pool. Everyone loves the pool here (again, because of the 100 or so heat that frequently plagues Salamanca). Lunch is between 2:30 and 3 everyday. My senora cooks every meal herself and they usually involve meat (usually pork). We always have water for lunch and dinner, and white baguettes that are good if I don't compared them to the bread in Italy. After lunch, is siesta time. Most of Spain takes part in this, and I frequently attend as well. As you'll see later, I don't get very much sleep here and my naps are a catch-22. I want to nap because I didn't get enough sleep, but if I nap instead of using the time for homework I then have more to do that night, and therefore get less sleep.

5:15- Time for my Spanish Guitarra class. I signed up for this class through the University because I've always had the dream to be awesome at the Guitar or the Piano. (I think the dream is really to be as sexy as hell, and playing the guitar is just a way to get me there.) I have class from Monday through Thursday from 5:40 t0 7:10. For the past week the nerves in my fingers have permanently been bruised. I think I have some natural musical talent but I am still in the 'WOW really terrible" category. I hope my one more week of class will be enough to send me into the "Santana? oh, no, just maple" category.

Maybe not.

7:30- Once I get home I either have the chance to continue my homework or go for a run. I definitely like running here more than at home. This may be because I have friends that go with me and because we usually end up running through one of the most gorgeous parks right by my apartment. I get back from my runs about 8:30 or 9. It is still very hot and light out at this point so it is a great time to run. BUT. My senora told me that I cannot shower before 11pm or after 1pm because the water is more expensive then (I messed this up the first week I arrived because I didn't understand why I couldn't shower during the day). I've been thinking of it like a phone plan where talking at night or on the weekends in cheaper. So I come back from a run, and sit until 11pm in a pool of my own sweat.

9:30- Dinner is really late in Spain. I've heard of families in some places that eat around 11pm or later. I've gotten used to the time but I don't prefer it.

I usually have enough work to last me until 1 am or so. My Salamanca classes require little work so all of it comes from my Michigan literature class.

If I go out, my night starts around 11 and can go until 3. Spanish people do not start their nights until 3am. The Foreigners own the bars from 11-2 and the natives show up after that. The music clearly changes from American music to Spanish music. I've heard that Spanish people sleep less on average than people from any other country and I believe it. They eat dinner at 10pm, go out at 3, but then start their days at a fairly normal time. I've been getting about 6-7 hours a night, some only 3-5. It is not enough.

My University of Michigan class is not held on Fridays. Although my Salamancan classes are, I have missed the last two and will be missing this Friday as well. The first weekend I was here, before my classes started, I took a 7 hour train on Friday to

Barcelona. Unfortunately the trip was not long enough but some of the highlights were seeing the Picasso Museum, swimming in the Mediterranean, and visiting one of Gaudi's famous churches: La Sagrada Familia.

I could not believe that it was a church when I first saw it.

More likely it was a huge volcano created by the shifting plates of the earth, or maybe Dr. Suess had created a piece of one of his dreams, where children and fantastic creatures could come and live forever in the youth and rhyme of life.

At the top of each spire of rock like wet sand stood proud caps straight from a Candy Land game.

Inside, the pillars were COLORS, leaning up toward a ceiling of

carved exploding suns and stars.

On La Sagrada Familia's facade, Gaudi melted his religious figures

and stories into the wet rock. Reading our guide book and trying to find all of his carved shapes was a difficult treasure hunt.

The next weekend, missing my classes on Friday, I took a trip through the University to Portugal. We were in the capital Lisoa for 2.5 days... well it ended up being a full 3.

Everyone has been asking me about Spain winning the World Cup. The Sunday that we returned from Portugal was the final. Up till this point I had seen three of Spain's games in Spain. Each game was filled with energy, nervousness, and lots of advice yelled in Spanish. Each scene swarmed with red. Each win came with cheering, honking, hugging, jumping, dancing, drinking, on and on. I knew that this night would just be this to an even bigger degree. The people of Salamanca would eat the streets. There would be partying for days, maybe years. ¡VIVA ESPANA!

We were told we would be back in Salamanca by seven pm, plenty before the game at 8:30. Can't you guess where this is going? Three hours into the six hour ride home, the bus breaks down. Very long, very boring, very devestating story short, we ended up sitting in a shopping center, two hours away from the Spanish border, and watched the entire game. We got home at 4:30 am and by that point, although the bars still coughed red onto the street, and the air still rang with song, I went home immediately and went to bed. The next day, I dearly wished that I had only gotten 3 hours of sleep because I was out celebrating with my country.

But luckily the rest of our trip to Portugal was great.

We saw some great views (you know how I love great views), ate local food, tanned at small beaches, awed at Portuguese churches, and even climbed castle towers.

This past Friday I skipped class to go visit my sister. Yes. Visit my sister. She is currently in Spain as well on a language immersion trip and for this past week she was in Madrid (which is only 2.5 hours from me by train!). I left at 5:50 am and returned at 10:30. We spent a day together, visiting the Reina Sophia, El Estadio Santiago Bernaneu (where Real Madrid plays),

and talking together. The last time I saw her was the second week of May. It was a rejuvenating day.

This Saturday, getting up again at 5:45, I went again with a group from the University to Toledo. Toledo had beautiful churches to offer, and a quaint area to explore. Of course my favorite part was the overlooking view.

It is towns like Toledo, like Lucca in Italy, that I could see myself living in for a piece of my life.

Salamanca fits into that category too.

Bienvenidos a... España?

¡Hola from España!

I arrived here on the 27th of June. It was an epic journey.

My flight actually went really well. No problems there. We landed late in Madrid but I still had about an hour and a half to hop on a train or a bus to Salamanca. We were given a few instructions on how to find the buses from the airport so I decided to go and buy a ticket (since the ride was only suppose to be a little longer than the train was. I went to the first help desk that I could find and asked in Spanish where I could buy tickets for the bus; they pointed out the way. The next desk pointed me in a different direction. The next desk didn't know where or how to buy tickets. The next desk told me that the buses didn't run to Salamanca on Sunday.

It was time to try the train.

I followed the train signs and asked a new desk how to get to Salamanca. I was given a small metro map and they circled a stop two different lines away. I didn't question, bought a ticket, and got on the first line. But as I sat and started thinking about it I realized that a metro line could never get me to Salamanca (which is suppose to be 3 hours away by train). Maybe I had said something wrong in Spanish when I asked to go to Salamanca by train. Maybe there were two Salamancas. I got off the metro where I was suppose to transfer at and looked around for someone who could help me. I went and asked a women how to get to Salamanca. She again pointed to the metro stop. She said that it would take 8 minutes to get there. I assumed by now that there were two Salamancas because you could definitely not get to mine in 8 minutes. I told her this but I couldn't understand her response. She seemed just as confused as I did.

So I have to make a decision. Do I stand here and do nothing? (Remember: I have no phone. I have no internet.) I decide to go back into the main metro station, go to the stop and figure it out from there. So I buy a new ticket to get through the gates (the metro system in Spain is different than that in Italy; more like the American system that I have experienced). But for some reason my ticket doesn't work and open the doors. I buy a new one. This one doesn't work either. By this point I am flustered and hot. I don't know where I am going. I need to be in Salamanca in 3 hours. I could be lost forever. Who knows where I could be headed? I ask again for help: why is my ticket not working. I am pointed to a yellow help phone on the wall. I call and can't work out anymore in spanish than "my ticket is not working here". Am I really expected to solve my problems in Spanish over the phone? I hang up.

Now this is why I don't travel alone.

As many of you know, I talk a lot. I talk out my problems and my feelings. I need other people to rebound off of. When I don't have other people around, instead of calmly purposeful I become frantically helpless.

How did I finally get to Salamanca you ask? Well, first of all, I turned my ticket over and finally put it into the entrance machine the correct way. (Talk about estupida and overreaction). From there I realized that the metro stop everyone had been pointing me to had a little train symbol next to it. Duh. I had to get to the train station before I could get on a train.

So I get there. I ask directions again (having to go outside and find the right station). I try a machine but I cannot find Salamanca as a destination. I still do not have internet and therefore cannot check and see what the station in Salamanca is called. I get in the long line to buy tickets. By this point I have missed the train that would have arrived in Salamanca at 4 (the exact time that I was expected there). When I get to the desk they understand 'Salamanca' and they get me a ticket for a train that arrives at 6:30. They also help me find a pay phone. Luckily I have one page of emergency phone numbers open on my computer. I call the women in charge of meeting us at the station and helping us each find our correct family. She says that she can meet me at 6:30. She also gives me the phone number of my Senora who I will be staying with for the next 5 weeks. I call her, she understands who I am, and she will also meet me at 6:30 at the train station. Thank goodness. Finally I can sit and not worry.

I get off the train hours later, huge suitcase in hand (remember I have supplies enough for ten weeks), backpack pressing into my shoulders and creating a waterfall down my back. I realized that I was not told where to meet (and again, no internet). I can no longer just look for a group of 30-40 Americans and their Spanish families because I am 2 and a half hours late. I don't know what this lady or my family looks like. I wander around trying to be obvious that I am looking for someone. A girl asks me in Spanish whether I am from Wisconsin. I say no. I ask a worker in spanish if there has been an American group from the Universidad de Michigan around and where I could find them. He says he doesn't know. Twenty minutes later I am at the pay phone again. For some reason it is not working.

A woman comes up to me and asks me in Spanish if I am looking for my family. I gratefully answer: Sí. She is looking for her daughter. I don't know what my Senora's name is and she doesn't know her student's. But I do know that she has two daughters, 21 and 14. Am I from Wisconsin? No, why do they think that? But the facts seem to match up pretty well (and by this point I don't care whether I'm her girl. Just take me home. Let me put my suitcase down. Let me breath. I haven't eaten in forever. I think I literally have a river sprouting down my back.

I check online when we reach her apartment. She is my Senora and the girl who asked me before if I was from Wisconsin is my hermana. I laugh, thinking about what would have happened if they were not my correct familia? Things could actually have been worse than they were. When I meet up with my group from UofM later, the women who was suppose to meet me at the station doesn't even realize that she had forgotten me. And it's funny because I don't even care about how disarrayed this new program is. My last one was worse. And although I obviously struggle functioning when I am by myself, I have learned to independently go with the flow and try and be comfortable. (I am still learning how to succeed at that.)

But I am alive. I kept saying that after that day of travel because that's all that I could be grateful for. But I am also here, in a beautiful place. It did not take me long to calm down and realize that.

-Juani, my Senora is 41. Her daughters Lorena y Leticia are 21 and 14 respectively.

-Our apartment is very small but very nice. Here in Spain they use space much more efficiently than we do at home. The kitchen here is as small as a bathroom back home (and the laundry machine is in the kitchen as well). I have my own room which is great.

-I live about 15 minutes from the Plaza Mayor and 20 from all of my classes. The people walk everywhere here. It is a lifestyle that I really love.

-My family here speaks very loudly. They are not mad... they just lightly scream at each other.

-Since it's all girls in the apartment they walk around in their bras and underwear. The 90 degree heat may help. They called me loca for wanting to run at 3 in the afternoon.

-Lunch is at 2 or 2:30 everyday. Dinner is at 9:30. They serve me large portions, larger than their own. My favorite thing is the Zumo here (Pronounced 'thumo' because of the Spanish lisp) which is their juice. But instead of being some real juice and then a bunch of other crap that they hide in small print on the back, the juice here is actually 100% juice (or close to it). Every morning I have peach and grape juice that's to die for.

-My family speaks no english. Only my Senora's accent is thick enough that I have trouble understanding her, but all three know that if they speak fast enough I cannot even try to listen.

-Nightlife for Spaniards doesn't start until late. Last week I was coming home from my night when I passed Lorena just going out.

-The TV is always on, especially during meals. It is a good excuse to not listen to their rapid conversation if I am too tired. My sisters really like reality shows. Lorena also loves the Simpsons. Leticia watches a lot of Fineas and Ferb; Disney Channel (all in Spanish of course)

-I have complete freedom here, except for meal times and skipping meals.

-They have an air freshener in the living room. I think that it must be motion triggered. Every morning when walk into the living room to eat breakfast, it scares me to death when it makes its noise- like a snickering sneeze. I have this half-asleep-still seizure of surprise before I realize what it is.

My classes start this upcoming week. I am taking a class on the Spanish Civil War with a UofM professor native to Spain. I then have two classes taught by local professors: Spanish History and Art History. This past week has been orientation, a hands on one credit class about the childcare system here (in the future expect a post as a final project for that class), and time to adjust. Adjusting for some means visiting the all-you-can-drink-for-5-Euros-bars. For others it is sleeping, or walking around Salamanca, or speaking with your new family. It has been pieces of all of this for me, although I have been falling behind on the sleep part again, as well as catching up on bits of shows, writing and writing to friends, family, and you (my blog's audience which I have created and expanded in my head).

The landscape here is less green than I expected.

It peaks in the 90s here everyday, heat washing through the streets and houses. It sweeps around necks and presses on eyes. But I think I may like it more than the cold of Michigan (maybe I should say the cold of Traverse City because Ann Arbor doesn't know the true length that winter can have).

Tomorrow it may be up to 100 degrees (about 35 degrees Celsius here). We'll see how I feel then.

The churches and many important buildings here seem to be made of sand, like they're going to slither down into a nothing of dust if they get too dry. They are remarkably different from those in Italy and I am so enchanted with them. The spindly grotesque forms grow up the buildings' facades like ivy.

Another fun thing about my experience in Spain. For the entire month of July there are government mandated 'Rebajas' or sales. The first day of July, I had to battle through the crowds of Spanish women at the clothing stores and I hope to go shopping again soon before every item in Salamanca is gone.

Government mandated. Imagine that in the US. How awesome right? I wish I could speak to my Senora about complex issues like governmental policies.

One more thing that I do not like about Salamanca: Because they eat so much pork here there are meat shops scattered throughout the city. The severed pig legs hang in the windows enticing you in. They are discolored and look like they could not possible contain any edible meat. Maybe those are the ones that they have designated to be the showcase pig legs, like when they show you the example desserts at fancy restaurants. But they all look like this, like they're made of plastic, and I give them a wide berth at the supermarkets for fear of rubbing up against one. But the worst thing about these meat stores is the smell. It isn't raw meat, it's worse, like stale meat that is rotting in wax and chemicals. It is foul, even at night when the doors are closed and the lights are off. I know where these stores are so that I can move to the other side of the street on my walk home. I know which ones have air conditioning inside and shed their warm sweat through the low vents in the sides of the buildings. The stench floods out onto the street and into your body like poison.

I don't like being alone and getting lost. I don't like the smell of warm, plastic pig. I don't like the air freshener that waits to scare me in the morning like my brother hiding behind the corner at the top of the stairs.

The rest, the rest is good.